Bad choices

I haven't been making very good food choices lately and I am upset with myself. I've heard that the maintenance part of weight loss is the hardest. I can confirm that now. I work out 8 times a week, run over 20 miles a week and I can't lose these last 5-10 pounds. You know why?!? Because I haven't been eating well. I KNOW how to eat to lose weight, but I haven't been doing it. One reason is because I was so strict for a year. I got tired of thinking about what I could and couldn't eat. I wanted to enjoy food again. Another reason was our training for the half-marathon. I knew I needed to eat more calories, but I went a little crazy with that thinking! After the half, we decided to run a full marathon. Again, that gave me an excuse to eat whatever I wanted. In 12 days we will be finished with the marathon and it will be time to get serious again. I may use this blog as a way of staying accountable and honest about how I am eating. I would really like to lose all I want by the summer and then work on maintaining the right way without having to kill myself at the gym. I can't live this way for the rest of my life. I need to find an eating and workout schedule that will work for the next 40-50 years. What I am doing right now isn't sustainable.